Too low

It had not been too smooth lately. I knew all the problems not others faults. It was just mine.
I could not stand being the one that went to place that I had never been alone.
"The viya feel satisfied to changed and remain in this world."
I think I am so low that I cannot even stand changes. I don't like to change things that I had decided.
I hoped you can just do it.
I hate being just a substitute. Whenever nobody want to than I will be the one.

I hate myself grumbling. I hate myself being impatient. I hate myself being unsatisfied with things.
I am so so so low.....=.=